Hi,
I always wanted to write my thoughts. I never really fooled with a computer before my son went to Iraq to work. To keep in touch I needed to learn how to use email and go on his blogspot. Family is very important to me. I have 2 sons,a daughter and 2 grandchildren(a girl 4 and a boy 6 mths). They mean the world to me. My boys are 30 and 32. My daughter is 27. My husband and I have been married for nearly 33 years in June. I have had many ups and downs in my lifetime. My faith in God has kept me going. I have 2 brothers and 4 sisters,all younger them me. Our mother died in November of last year.She had a hard time raising us because she was slow in understanding and was childlike herself. Our dad was no help because of the way he treated her and us. He had and still does have alot of self pride. He could never admit that he was wrong about what he said or did. Somehow we all survived and grew up and have families of our own. My mo and dad separated 29 years ago. Almost 3 years after my last 2 sisters were born (twins). My husband and I took my mom,brother and twins in until my grandfather (moms' dad) helped them buy a trailer of their own but my grandfather and I took care of things for them. We lived in the same family neighborhood until we built our knew home in town. I have took over the Mother role for my family in a way. We have taken in my sisters and brothers in and the ones that had families to help them out in their or need until they could get back on their feet. We have also taken a couple of my sisters' boys also. I guess you' d call me the caregiver of our family. When our mom got sick, we took her in and took care of her until she died. Her father and mother(my grandparents) died in 1990 (grandmother) and 1996(grandfather).That was hard on me because they were always there for me during my rough times growing up. About 12 years ago our family was torn apart for awhile because of something that happened. I was devastated but I knew because of my children and husband I had to go on. When my daughter got married things turned around and they forgave and we began to be a family again. That meant the world to me. I keep saying we because I mean my husband and I. He has never through all these years denied me of helping my family.Not too many husbands would do that. He has his faults that makes things hard sometimes,but I know he loves me with all his heart so I overlook them. Sometimes its hard because I do alot for him to keep things together so he does't have to worry. He gets depressed and sometimes I think to myself he shouldn't because he has it made compared to many. He has always worked hard and we seem not to be able to get ahead but with the good Lords' help everything seems to work out.I am in our churches choir and do the readings in church. I'm Catholic but I believe that there is only one God and Savior and if you believe the same thing then who am I to judge you because you are in a different religion.I have been going to church 4 days a week during lent and on Sundays and praying alot for my family.Especially for my son in Iraq.Not only because he is over there but just before he left a relationship he had (engagement)was broken off because of something from his pass. He loves her dearly and is very hurt but has alot of faith and hopes one day they will be back together. When my children hurt, so do I. My middle son still lives at home. There are things he needs to change in his life and I pray someday soon he will see that also. Our daughter is happily married now 5 years in June and have our 2 grandchildren. They are something else. I babysit them and other neices and nephews while their parents work. Its hard sometimes because my patience isn't like it use to be, but I love doing this and teaching them values and things they' ll need to start school. I wanted to be a teacher, so now I'm doing it at home with my family. I pray everyday for my little ones and family members because this world is in such turmoil I fear for their future. I hope through my example I can continue helping them. I am for from perfect but I know everyone knows they can count on my help whenever they need it. Well, I guess thats all for now. I'm here to listen to anyone who needs help and if I can't help with advice at least you know I will pray for you and be there to listen anytime.
MAY GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU SAFE!!!